Passing quickly.

Time is just moving by so damn quickly this year. I feel like every time I blink it's a new month. How the hell is tomorrow Thanksgiving? As I try and think back at what all has happened since I last wrote, it amazes me.

I had really really deep heart-to-heart with Jordan and I think it had a large impact on the both of us. I don't have much time to focus on anything but my responsibilities, which is both a good and bad thing. This musical and the internship take up all my time and energy, but I think they each will be worth it in the end, despite all the many troubles in between.

The main thing that has thrown me for a loop is my birthday gift for Matt. I went through so much trouble to make the Citizen Cope concert happen and he managed to ruin the entire experience for me. I shouldn't be surprised, though, because he really has no perception of how his actions affect others and he doesn't seem to care to either. I'm really tired of being the mature one in this situation and the one who puts in the effort and care. I don't have the energy to care nor to try anymore, so I'm just leaving it up to him to figure out when he wants to give a fuck about anyone but himself.

The Boston trip was exciting, frustrating, and liberating all at the same time. I really do miss travelling and just opening myself up to new places/environments and experiences. I definitely want to do more of that in the future, if I can. Even if it's not to Europe, but just a hour or two away. There's so much to be seen and experienced in this world that is both entertaining and worthwhile--so much to learn from. And I never want to stop learning.

That brings me to say that I'm really looking forward to my artistic future. I'm really starting to believe and trust in myself when creativity and art is concerned. Developing and knowing that makes everything else a little bit easier to deal with.

So there's a lil bit of an update, I suppose. More to come, hopefully.