On my Atheism Soapbox.

I should probably be writing my paper instead of typing this blog, but alas I am not. Something struck me last night when I was talking with my mother. I just finished my short film for my Acting I final and wanted to show it to her. The entire process has been extremely frustrating with her involved. She hasn't been able to wrap her head around how this film gets made. Question after question after question, asking but how can it do that, why do you put it there, what makes the color show, etc., etc. Even after I explained to her all the details I possibly could, in every way I knew how, she still couldn't just accept that the camera would work, and that the film would come out just the way I said it would.

Now what hit me was this: for something so small of thing as camera and film, my mother had to ask a million questions and couldn't just accept what I told her was true. And yet, something so vast and complicated as our universe and the idea of a God, she accepts that and everything that goes along with it so easily. Why do people question all the things that don't necessarily matter in terms of life and death and our beliefs, but not question at all the idea of God when there is so little to support it? I guess I just don't understand why people put so much thought and effort into everyday things and not into the biggest questions of life: where did we come from and where do we go from here?

I question a lot of things. And I question them until I can understand fully or until I get all the answers possible. But I have asked time and time again about God and still I receive no assured answer, no supported answer. I could give 30 pages of support on my Lomokino camera and how and why it works. But no one can do that for God. If you can't even understand the workings and idea behind a silly camera, then how do you suppose you can understand and acknowledge the supposed being and power of a higher power?

This whole topic brings me to another point. A boy in the theatre department at school posted a status today quoting John Updike saying, "Among the repulsions of atheism for me has has been its drastic uninterestingness as an intellectual position. Where was the ingenuity, the ambiguity, the humanity (in the Harvard sense) of saying that the universe just happened to happen and that when we're dead we're dead?" I am extremely tempted to respond with: And where was the ingenuity, the ambiguity, the humanity of saying God did it? At least atheism is supported by millions of years of science, among a great deal else. God is only supported by a book that has been written, re-written, translated, and re-translated for thousands of years by MAN. Stories. The idea of a higher power was created by stories, not fact, truth, nor evidence.

These are the things I think about constantly. I just wish that there were more people around here that understood my thinking. I just wish, too, that people would realize how foolish they really are when it comes to this.